Well I am feeling a bit down today and have realized that it has kinda been a bad summer. As previously metioned My grandfather passed, which one you ask, well in my mind I only had one; my father's father Harmon Jex Tobler. I suppose it was his time to go and a good thing, but it was very sad for me anyway. This is the only man I ever thought of as my grandpa, and he was a great friend. I can only think of good memories when I think of him. Sad number two, my very best friend here in Arkansas (Not to be confused with my best friend in Utah, Maryann,) let me know that she feels that she is a worse person for hanging out with me the past two plus years. Hmmm... I suppose I should go into detail but I'll let you all decide if your lives are worse off for knowing me. (Please don't let me know if so, I don't think I could take it.) Then on a less sad note, Jeff's family dog died after almost a good ten years. We were lucky that we got to see her in Utah before she passed. This honestly didn't affect me since I cared little for the dog, but it sure bummed out Jeff, especially since his family didn't bother to tell him until a week later. And finanally when I was getting really bummed, a ray of hope, Jeff and I got pregnant. I was so excited and happy coming up with names and plans. Yesterday I lost the baby and while I know it is probably for the best, I can't help but be a bit sad. I am not posting this for sympathy as much as for a release of emotion. You all know I have never been good at holding back, so this summer has been hard and now I need to vent. So there it all is. Please don't stop reading, I promise I will not go on and on like this again. I am determined the next post will be happy.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
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Emily- I am so sorry to hear about the baby. We will keep you in our prayers.
My heart is breaking for you. I have lost two babies and know what a tragedy it is. If you need someone to talk to...call me. Let us know if you need a break from Primary Sunday. I know emotionaly you are probably a wreck, how are you doing physically? You'll be in my prayers--Jenny Grace
Thanks to everyone for the support and love. Jenny, I am planning to be at church on Sunday, I love my primary class too much to miss. They are truly the brightest light in my summer. I have never loved a calling more, those kids make me so happy and I had no idea how wonderful primary is. I get more out of sharing time then I have gotten out of relief society in years.
i'm so sorry to hear about the baby. we will be thinking of you and praying for you.
Emily,
I am sorry that Carrie and I missed you on Friday. I know you have a lot on your mind. Please, please let me know if I can do anything for you. I have truly loved getting to know you! I think you are a breath of fresh air, ( a little cliche, I know)but it's the only way I can explain it. I love visiting you!
Sorry to hear about the m/c. I have had two so far. But, hopefully for you, like me, it always(so far) followed with a viable pregnancy. We'll keep you in our prayers. Take care!
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