Obsession

As requested by the generous Sarah the following are my 5 admitable obsessions
1. Sheep
This all started when I was in high school and had a dream about hugging sheep. Since then I have amassed quite a collection of stuffed sheep, have a sheep sweater, and a promise from my friend Maryann that if I can figure out how to get the sheep out of Lyman, Utah I can have a gimp from her parents farm.

2. DVR
I can't stop looking ahead to see if something good will be on.

3. Job Hunting
Not a day goes by when I don't check the Bentonville Public Schools HR board to see if a position for a social studies teacher has opened up. This actually paid off two years ago, and I got a job in March, so that probably keeps me coming back each day. I check the Rogers and Gravette sites about once a month.

4. The Associate Store
This is a store for Walmart employees that has all the sample, clearance, and gift items that buyers/ and stores are not allowed to keep (anything over 50 cents.)They have everything there at one time or another. From regular Walmart merchandise to Neiman Marcus Ties, Lladro statues, Kate Spade Bags, Utah Shot Glasses. It is the most random assortment of items that are all at least 50% off. I love getting diapers for half price. The items change constantly. My most recent scores have been pampers diapers for 50% off, the John Adams Movie DVD for 5 dollars, Welches Juice for 1.50. Just a really random assortment. In a way it pays to go frequently cause you never know what will be there, but it is also hard to have self control and not buy something on sale. Just cause it is on sale doesn't mean I need it.

5. Injustice
I have a hard time getting over things. It takes me awhile when people apologize, but if they don't then I hang on forever letting it eat at me and torture me. The Internet has been an interesting tool for this as I am now able to search out old school bullies, "Do they regret treating me so badly? Do they even remember they terrorized me?" In the past year someone close abused me (mentally and emotionally)so shamefully that not a week goes by that I don't cry about it and not a day goes by when I don't think of that person, get angry, and wonder how they could behave in such a deplorable manner. I know that I need to rise above and forgive, but it is so hard, especially when the people responsible are so unaware of their guilt. I get by with prayer and the hope that with time I can become more Christ like and stop getting angry.

So those are my obsessions, or at least five of them. I'm not sure why I blog about what I do. I admire those of you that have a purpose, Keeping in touch, Recording memories for kids, humoring us all. I really don't know what my purpose is, but I think that this is a good thing for me, so I will keep at it with the random entries until I achieve some clarity or find a reason to stop. I am always open to suggestions, such as today's tag, or if you would all like more Max and less me. I have though about changing the background but came to the conclusion that this one really fits me.