I am not sure why but I have felt quite lonely lately. Fairly sure that it is not post par tum depression, but instead a combination of losing a few friends and it seems like everyone in my life is really busy right now. Or at least busier then me. Or too busy for me.
I feel as thought I have been dumped by a friend of mine whom I haves spent a lot of time with this past year. I was warned by a mutual friend that this other friend was one of those flavor of the month friends, you know the type, they get all excited when the first find you but then after awhile they lose interest. Well I am not longer interesting. We had an incident this week. When I got pregnant with Spike she gave me all her maternity clothes, (Not you Katie,) because she could no longer have children, or so she thought. Much to her and her husbands surprise, she got pregnant this last summer. I told her I would get her the clothes back, I had no problem with this. She face booked me and told me she was too busy to see me so I should have Jeff take the clothes to her husband who works with Jeff. Ummmm....It is not like I was obligated to give her the clothes, so the least she could have done is arranged a face to face. I don't think she is mad at me, I think I am just not interesting enough for her anymore.
One thing that I find impossible to do is play hard to get. Impatient and blunt, I find it difficult to hide my feelings, (Yes, big surprise to all of you.) Lately I have felt a bit neglected with my phone relationships. I try not to call, to hold out until someone wants to talk to me, but I never last for too long. Oh man this is a really sad and depressing post. No worries I am not going to start crying or do anything rash. Just throwing a few feelings out there. I am sure that very soon I will say something stupid that will cause quite the stir and get me riled into quite the self righteous fit and all this weepyness will be forgotten in a seething rage.
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I always feel out of the loop after I have a baby. I am always sleep deprived which makes me more sensitive but I really think it is because I'm not doing as many things because I have this little person to drag along everywhere. Then when I do go somewhere I feel like I don't talk to people as much because I have this little person to take care of and pay attention to. I hate crying in movies too. I will do just about anything to not cry in front of people in general.
I'm your friend. I know you already know this and don't need to be reminded, but it's always nice to hear it again.
Losing a friend sucks, and it is a difficult thing to not obsess over. Unfortunately, I don't have any advice on how to handle that one. But I will say that you're pretty fun, so whoever (whomever? I never know.) duped you is missing out.
I'm pretty weepy, especially lately. I totally will cry in movies and I don't feel bad about it, but I don't like to cry in church, I feel judged for being oversensitive. Wow---society sure has done a 180. Here we all are, trying to look tough, when 100 years ago, women were supposed to be dainty and weak.
I have thought of you several times this last few weeks. However, I spared you a phone call bc I thought the last thing she needs is a 'itchy, swollen, sleep deprived, literally itchy, tipping the scales, slightly manic, 4 weeks to go still, prego me' calling... But I'm resolved to feel better plus I have some more good stories I've been saving for you!!!! Feel better, you are loved & liked!!!
i have been feeling a lot like that lately too! i think it has a lot to do with having a baby and not being able to get as much done as i'm used to and not being able to leave the house as much. ps i miss talking to you. we should hook up on the phone sometime...when we're not both occupied with kids. i love you!!
I also hate when other people see me cry...at least it's dark in a movie theater, because I'm pretty sure mine is an ugly cry. So, I'd rather cry in a movie than at church! Hehe.
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