Girl Crush

Do you remember your last crush? For most people it was probably high school. I remember in Jr. High School having a HUGE crush on K.C. Keller. He was cute, nice but kinda runty. In elementary school I had a crush on Jared Auger. I even sent him a love letter. I was really void of common sense. I have also had various celebrity crushes. It started with Harrison Ford, then Heath Ledger, I mean have you seen that guy smile? I have a soft spot for Alan Rickman after Sense and Sensibility, which has always made the Harry Potter films a bit weird for me. Well recently I have discovered that I have a girl crush.

Now what constitutes a girl crush? Well a lot of it is the same as a regular crush, you like the person and you want them to like you. You get insecure around them but still want to be around them and hear what they have to say. You basically just want to be their friend but feel so hopelessly out of their league. How could someone so awesome like you. Looking back I have had a few girl crushes before. Julie Cope from elementary school. For 3+ years I wanted to be her friend so badly, but she choose others to be her BFF. Maybe I tried too hard, looked too desperate.

Well now I am an adult. I shouldn't have any reason to feel insecure. I bagged to world's most caring husband, and have a very fulfilling life. I may not be everyone's cup of tea, but I think I can be pretty fun. So about a year ago this amazing woman Catania moved into my ward. Catania is my girl crush. She is just so cool. She is a super talented artist. I love how she chooses different medias to work in and has a large variety of subjects. She even has a blog just for her creative works. I get flustered when I am around her, for no good reason. She is lovely to me, this isn't about her. I am not quite sure what is going on with me, I am not looking for a BFF, always just for more friends and I would consider her one. But I still get flustered and worried that I am going to say something stupid, (I bet my other friends wish that I would worry more about that around them.)

She invited me to her house for lunch this summer and I must have changed my outfit and the kids outfit like 4 times. She said she was making bagels so I went and got cream cheese schmere, but it didn't go with the kind she made. My heart fell. (But the bagels were FANTASTIC!) Mmmmm bagels......anyway, she was a sweet hostess and we had a good time, but again I still feel the same way. So bizarre. So blurkers, have you ever had a girl crush? Do you have one now? How do you get over the inadequate feelings? Have you meet Catania? She is so awesome.